Yeehaw, got the website back up! That’ll teach me to rebuild the computer it runs on :P Look forward to some new crud up in this piece soon yo.
History 12/8
Why is it you put yourself down
What is it that causes you to frown
Too busy living up to someone else
Not even sure what you want yourself
If you aren’t happy with yourself
Then you won’t be happy with anyone else
For being selfless comes from selfishness
And helping yourself helps everyone else
History 11/27
What goes through your head to make you think it’s right
The sick part is that it happens every fucking night
Tortured, battered and beaten for something they posses
There is more to these people than an ass and breasts
The line has been drawn and they will fight back
You are now marked because of your act
Better start running and fear for your life
Because justice for you is an eye for a eye tonight
If the roles were reversed I’m sure you wouldn’t like it
But when your will is broken and life shattered how will you fight it
Living in fear and the possibiity of reoccurance
Self-guilt and being scared make you endure it
Your selfish acts destroy lives
And your justification is bullshit lies
If you could see what you’ve done from the other side
You’d want to run and hide
History 11/15
What causes you to act that way
Do you know you destroyed someone’s life today
Don’t show your face around these parts
Or I will fucking tear you apart
You said we were friends but that was a joke
And now on your own words you will choke
And now that you take women for your own use
I hope you can suffer much worse for your sexual abuse
History 11/13
I see you changing for a better way
But I’m afraid it’s all in sway
For you say your changing for him and her
And this will become somthing bitter to remember
If you aren’t changing for you
It’s just not worth it
Be yourself and stay true
You’ll see it’s worth it
I’m not telling you what to do
Just trying to give advice
Don’t want to see you fall through
And end up in strife
History 11/3
Finally got the courage but was denied
Once again feelings trapped inside
Will these emotions ever come out
These love games make me want to shout
How can you tell what someone feels
When to make the move and sign the deal
But when you do you get shut down
And all your hopes sink and drown
Gotta get up and start again
Can’t let this be the end
Life goes on and so should I
And get the courage to once again try
History 10/18
Why don’t we use fists
To settle our disputes
Rather than these guns
And further ill repute
It shows your insecurities
When you hide behind steel
Don’t think you can win
So you show the fear you feel
Does someone deserve to die
Because of what you feel inside
What gives you the right
To send someone on the eternal ride
History 10/11
You can’t understand what I am because it’s not on TV
You are afraid of what I’ll do because you don’t know me
Rather than try to understand you block me out
So here we came to shut you down and throw you out
Skins and punks with you ’till the end
Skins and punks can’t ask for better friends
Skins and punks together we will stand
Skins and punks on the warpath against the man
We’ve been around longer than your latest trendy fad
We stand up for what we believe so you call us bad
Put us down to make yourself feel better
But your insecurities don’t matter
History 9/18
Coming from a rural town
To a place where suburbia abounds
He tries to understand this place
But it’s brashness is shoved in his face
All the things astounded his eyes
And he became desensatized
He escaped this reality by believing lies
And being jaded and failed to realize
That what he hated and despized
Was what was really behind those lies
Backed into a corner and failing fast
His resolve is weakening at last.
Pride torn and image smashed
Seeing his flag flying at half mast.
Embracing The Pain
So as some of you who know me already know, I am currently recovering from knee surgery. Now comes the fun known as physical therapy.
On December 10th, I had my ACL replaced again (second time) in my left knee. The first one didn’t work out so well, and my knee had started developing a bad habit of not wanting to straighten out at semi-random times. So hack and slash it was!
This recovery is supposed to be much faster as I had a cadaver ligament put in place of another graft like last time. In fact, little more than a week after the operation and I’m able to already put weight on the leg. Not off the crutches yet but between physical therapy and good old fashioned healing I’m on the mend.